This is just the beginning.

I'd like to start this blog by saying that it is understood that we love our kids, our husbands, our families...but sometimes being an at-home Mom is torture.  When I graduated from college and entered the working world I was full of ideas, ideals, drive, promise and a whole lot of energy.  I was going to be the best.  It didn't matter what it was.  If I was starting it, I did everything that I could to excel at that thing with the goal of blowing everyone out of the water.  I had no intentions of being a stay-at-home mother.  I had full intentions of leading a company, leading a cause, starting something that mattered!  But life doesn't always go the way that you plan.  I met my husband, laughed harder than I ever had in my life, fell in love and got married.  Before we knew it, before we were prepared, we were blessed with our first child.  I had no intentions of staying home.  I loved my job.  I wanted to go back....until the day that I was supposed to. Then I couldn't bear leaving our son.  I called my boss that morning and quit my job.  At the time, I was making more than my husband.  It was the worst financial decision that we could have made.  But deep down, I just could not leave.  I had no idea how hard being a Mom would be.  I just knew that I was supposed to do it.  That was eight years ago.  Now we are going to explore the everyday job that I sometimes resent.  Again...I love my kids more than anything, anyone in the world.  I would do anything for them.  But I am only human and this job doesn't end at 5pm!